We give one thing. Time for example. We give time to something or someone. Is this then understood we are also taking away time from someone or something? The thing we to which are not giving time? Where are we? I’d say the more time we give to ourselves the less time we give to others, and as they say (and is true), “the more you give (to others) the more you get (for self),” which then makes it clear there are specific things we need to avoid. 1Excess sleep for example. Excess sleep is selfish time spent for the self. Excess sleep is a clear fuck you to all the things and all the someones out there. All that time you could have given away. All that time you took for your self, excessively so, sleeping on the job of being alive. And hey I’m talking / writing to my self right now about the way I still fall into excessive sleep. That much is clear, that much is clear yes but when will the words rain. 7There must be inner-conflict. And there is! I am completely concerned with how I am giving my time to the world. The rate at which I need to improve is high but the actual rate of improvement is low. There isn’t much time at all. I fear. I fear time. I fear time all the time. I fear the way habits exist and continue to exist. I fear the way we fail and are prone to mistakes and errors and bad first impressions. I fear the way we limit ourselves. I fear the way we lose sight of all the treasure and wealth around us. I fear the way fear makes me feel and fear fear. But like Joy says nothing makes you feel; on the contrary, you choose to feel the way you feel! Allegedly! But that son of a bitch fear certainly has a clever way of taking over, has a clear way of hi jacking your drivers seat, has a way of driving under the red influence of #b2060c, and has a way of scaring the shit out of all the passengers: you and all who are dependent upon on you (which for some is the entire world!). And look here we get stuck between walls of ambition and reality, and we get stuck between perspectives of non-existent imaginings & the one we have of our self, and we get stuck and get still and become still vibrating to the involuntary shake of being just so damn scared all the time of all the possibilities and all the ways and choices, decisions and time, discovery and 3iving.